Inspiration

Health

I am thankful for my health. And the health of my family.

Making Memories

I am thankful for the fun and goofy times I get to spend with my kids. And for all of the times they let me take their picture.

I love making memories.

I am thankful that I am trying to give my children times to remember.

Love is the answer

I wanted to blog about things that I am thankful for this week.

I just wanted to let my husband know that I am truly thankful for everything he does for me and our family. He has stepped up to the game when needed and has made sure he is always there for our children. I am thankful for him adopting my two boys to complete our family with our daughter. I want him to know that his hard work has not gone unnoticed.

~Honey, I love you. You are my soulmate.

Kids Say the Darnest Things

My daughter can be so funny and she doesn't even know it.

The weather man said it was supposed to snow yesterday and she woke up and ran to her window to look outside and there was no snow. So she curled back up into bed and started to cry. I asked her why and she said she was mad at God for not letting it snow.

My son and daughter were jumping on the trampoline and they said they were singing songs to God to make him happy so it would stop raining. They wanted Him to stop crying.

We were all in the bathroom getting ready and brushing our teeth when my daughter grabbed a tampon and showed it to her brother and said when I get older I have to wear these.

I wish I had a book that I wrote these things down so I could save them for later when they have dates!

What do your kids say?

Pour Your Heart Out...Sharing too much?

I need to get back into blogging. I let it all out on Facebook but need to write it out more. I feel as if when I blog no one reads it. Then the people who do stop by don't comment. I know that I have followers and yet they don't take the time to stop by. But I know I should blog for me and not for a follower.

I've been told that I shouldn't post some of the things I do because they are private. But the way I feel about it is that we can't learn from things if we don't know about them or share them. I enjoy hearing advice on the things I post. Or when I read things that others write it is nice to know that I am not alone in what I am going thru. Therefore, I can talk to that person in how we are dealing with the situation.

Sometimes the only way to get help is to let it all out there. I know the internet shares too much about us already and some people shy away. Some people enjoy talking to a human instead of writing about their problems/joys. But the only way we can share what we are going thru is to let it out.

I don't read posts just to be nosey. I learn from reading all experiences. It just seems as if the only blogs that people stop to read are the ones that have giveaways or are linked up to something. Which is a great way to do it but we all aren't that lucky. I know that there are some people who write about a person or persons in an extreme hateful fashion and we don't have to read those unless you are trying to get advice from it. But if we don't like what we read we can always just click the little red X at the top right head corner of the screen. But it is nice to see that you stopped by even if you leave a :) on the comment page.

My honesty never killed anyone. It might sting sometimes but what honesty doesn't?

She is still beautiful

My son took these pictures of his little sister making herself look all beautiful. I never got to see the lipstick on the face in person which is kind of nice. She got it all cleaned up before I had to say anything.

Super Cook and Crazy Parents

Super Cook

A friend of mine mentioned this website on Facebook and I had to go check it out. http://www.supercook.com/ You type in the ingredients that you have at home and then it gives you dinner ideas to fix depending on just the ingredients that you have. It is so cool. This way I don't have to keep making the same things for dinner or I don't have to get a recipe and run to the store to pick up everything that I need. I think this might help save some money when it comes to grocery shopping and preparing dinner.


Crazy Parents

I had a parent call me last night to tell me how her son paid mine son $5 for one of his Teck Decks and she wanted her $5 back. Well, I told her that my son gave it to a different boy for one of his Teck Decks. So she just went crazy on me and how upset she was that I wasn't going to give her the $5 back. If I had it then I would have given it back but I didn't have it. My son gave it to another boy.

I know she was mad at her son more then she was mad at me but sometimes people don't realize how rude they can be. She said that she was just going to take it up with the principal and hung up on me. What does she think the principal is going to give it to her?

Sometimes you get further in a situation by how you talk to someone.

Pour Your Heart Out

Just wanted to say how proud of myself I am on how I have been trying to improve on being the old me. I have been interacting a lot more with my kids. I've been much more social with other adults.

I went out on a date with my husband this past weekend and I actually stayed out much later then I would normally. I was invited to an evening for girls only for some birthday cake.

I am rather impressed with myself on how I am doing. I just got so tired of being an old mom. I want to be a fun mom again.

I just refuse to let life get to me. I want to enjoy the blessings that I have.

HiYa! Practice makes perfect

So my daughter started martial arts today after school and she was so excited to practice. Well, she ended up giving her big brother a black eye. It was rather a priceless moment! Maybe she doesn't need to practice too much.

Don't mess with my boys

I just love how my son looks up to his Dad. He wants to be just like thim. It really makes my heart smile. Especially, since we've had so many problems with him. He is on the right track now with new medicine and a great role model!

"You don't raise heroes, you raise sons. If you treat them like sons, they'll turn out to be heroes, even if it's just in your own eyes."

Pour Your Heart Out

Do you ever just wake up one morning and take a look at your life?

I just am not the same person I was a few years ago. I am trying to figure out what happend. It isn't as easy to do as one might think.

A few years ago I was so happy. I was happy with lots of things about my life. I got along better with my husband and I was more involved with the kids. I was much more outgoing. I had some wonderful friends. So what happend to all of that? Where did it all go?


I lost custody of my two boys a few years ago by moving out of state with my husband trying to make a better life for ourselves. Then I put ALL of my efforts into getting them back. And once a parent has custody it isn't easy trying to get them back. The kids were mentally and phyisically abused and yet court advicates just thought you were making things up and wouldn't listen. My life was torn in half. My husband then had to take a job out of state while I moved back to the state my boys were in so I could get them back while raising our daughter.



Because my life was under a microscope I completely changed who I was. If I started working then I wasn't available to take care of them. If I said or did the wrong thing it was used against me. I didn't pose in pictures anymore because I would be at fault for something. I didn't go out with friends because then I looked like a party goer. I never had a drink because I looked like an alcoholic. It already looked bad that I didn't live with my husband. But he had to work where he could and that meant out of state. He came home every weekend though. But I didn't have his shoulder there to lean on during the emotions I was going thru.



I changed who I was. I was fun loving. I was energetic. I was social.



Well, now I do have my kids back. And I do live with my husband. And now we live, again, in yet another state but together. My husband got to adopt my two boys. We live as a family once again. So why are things still so different?



I don't interact with the kids like I used to. My husband and I rarely go out on dates or have alone time. We don't have money because it cost so much to live here. I can't find a part time job that allows me to get the kids everywhere they need to be. I am always uptight and yell at everything. Am I angry? What am I angry at?


I can't seem to figure it out. Why can't I be the same person that I used to be? Why can't I find her again? It's not easy being poor but we do have great parents that help us out.


I realize things will never be the same. People change. I can't say that I am unhappy because I am not. I have so much to be thankful for. But where is that fun person that I used to be?

My Goblins

I just love these guys. Even if they are wierd!