Maybe it's the weather, maybe it is that I am not used to having any children at home during the day but lately I feel so out of touch. It is really hard making new friends when you move to a new state. Especially when you have this phobia of people. I feel like all of my old friends have moved on since I'm not there anymore. Out of sight out of mind.
I am missing my friends and every time I ask them to visit they never try to make plans. I send emails and they never reply. It makes things hard. I've been here a little over 6 months. I have met people but no one that I can bond with or express myself too.
It makes me feel like it is me. Am I doing something wrong? I just don't get it. I know that I'm not reading into things. I am pretty good at reading people. It's been something I've been good with and normally pretty right on.
I hate trying to figure out what is wrong. Is it me? Is it I miss my old friends? Is it that my kids are growing? Is it that I never get out? Is it that I don't have money like we used to to be able to do things that I enjoy? I just wish things didn't have to change.
